Anna’s Life

Why does life have to be so difficult and have so many obstacles? Why can’t life just be fun and full of laughter?

If I could change something about myself,  it would be to not take things so seriously.  I do pretty well most of the time, but there are times when it just seems too much to bear.

I love to laugh.  But, today, it was a hard day.  My mom is declining so rapidly with her Alzheimer’s it is really taking a toll on me.  I have a lot of other things going on in my life that are stressful as well. 

I did something today that I rarely if ever do…I broke down and just cried in front of someone.  I didn’t mean to.  I wasn’t planning on it.  I guess my emotions were just running so high I could not contain it.

Mom is just not mom anymore and it breaks my heart.  We have not always had the best relationship, but all in all it has been a pretty good one.  That is why her decline is so hard for me to take.  It seems that none of the medications are doing anything to slow the progress at all.

My dad passed away 6 years ago, but we were never close nor did we have a healthy relationship.  My mom is all I have left, and I am an only child which makes it even harder on me.  I will muddle through it with God’s help.  God is the only one who can help me in this mess.

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