The world will never be the same once he gets his learner’s permit! LOL

I must say that I never thought my ex would be one of those men who did not pay their child support.  Unfortunately I was mistaken.  He now owes for 3 months.  My money is very tight due to hour cuts at work and having to help pay for my mom in assisted living. 

I am going to have to make other arrangements for my mom as I cannot afford to help pay her assisted living.  Trying to learn how medicare works is awful.  She really does not qualify for medicaid.  It is a catch-22 unfortunately.

If my ex would just pay, my life would be much easier financially.

I must say I have not missed being constantly yelled at, put down, neglected, treated like the maid, having my kids constantly yelled at and put down, and just the chaotic stress level he created within our home.

This past 3 months have been heaven as far as being without the yelling and abuse.  My kids are much happier as am I. 

My mother is now in assisted living at least for the next 60 days which is giving us an additional break.  Her dementia was rapidly claiming her and she was driving everyone crazy.  Home is finally peaceful and pleasant.

We did get an above ground pool last week…which in this heat wave has been a blessing for sure.  We are thoroughly enjoying our new life and look forward to our next adventure.

I love to decorate/redecorate.  It makes me feel alive and gives new life to a room or rooms.  I love to shop Hobby Lobby and Home Goods stores.  Pier One is another favorite.

I have also been going around the house competing have done projects my husband has left for years.  It is getting on my nerves and I am enjoying doing it myself much to his surprise and chagrin.  It has given me a sense of satisfaction to become more self sufficient and not depend on anyone else to get things done.

How on earth will I afford the insurance?  I am not looking forward to this at all! LOL

I know it will be much better for mom’s stability to have things pretty much on an even keel with little change in routine.  The house (her house) where we live will seem so empty and odd without her.  I know it is just another chapter in my life and hers, but it saddens me still.

It will take a lot of getting used to for both of us.  She is used to being so independent.  This past year has really knocked the wind out of her sails with the Alzheimer’s.  Hopefully she will be happy in her new home.

It is sad that after 17 years of marriage it came down to this.  Sometimes that is how it goes though.  My kids’ well-being was at stake.  Something had to be done.  No one likes to be yelled at and berrated constantly.

It is definitely going to be a summer of adjustments for us with the divorce and my mom going to an assisted living facility.  Hopefully it will be more peaceful for all of  us.

My son especially has resentment for his dad and the way his dad treated him.  It became very dangerous between the two of them with my husband threatening to hit him several times.  Hopefully with some time and distance they will be able to mend their relationship at some point.

With my kids keeping me running in all directions, meals at crazy times, and me going through a divorce…our household is just to chaotic for mom.  She spends all of her energy trying to keep up with everyone and it makes her more confused.

I have been praying for guidance and peace and now I have it.

We had a nice Christmas this year.  My son is into airsoft guns and equipment which can become quite expensive.  Actually everything my teenage son likes is expensive.  I insisted that he at least wear safety glasses when he is playing with the airsoft guns.